Posts by SueM

WHY ?????????

WHY ?????????

By on Apr 19, 2014 in Blog | 1 comment

Sue suggests listening to this song whilst reading her blog. This  is my lovely husband Nick – he is Missions Director for LifeChurch Manchester.  He became ill after a trip to Kazakhstan in October 2010.  (Don’t let that put you off going, it’s a great place!).  I have watched him suffer over the last four years; he has had major surgery for ulcerative colitis, crohns and various other problems. The other photo/image is of Job!  I am very proud of how Nick has handled suffering, given that he is not as blameless and upright as Job.  Yet there have been times when, like Job, I have shouted, screamed, cried “Why????”, particularly whilst out running.  Often in my mental anguish I have been trying to relate “our” experience to the unchanging character of God.  One doesn’t have to live long to experience suffering and frustration.  When unexpected and unexplained things happen and it all goes horribly wrong, where do you run to? As Christians if we neglect to read the book of Job, it will be to our own detriment. I have discovered that  it is a unique contribution to the word of God. I even wonder was Job the greatest believer of all time? Would I have included Job in the canon?  A few more nice psalms perhaps?  Job shows us that God allows suffering.  There is no escape from His sovereignty, yet He cannot be credited with evil. Is this a test of faith for Nick and I?  Does God have divine confidence in us? Should we take only good things from God and not trouble? (Job 2 v10).  We perhaps make God in our image, considering Him as we would like Him to be or how we think He should be. Using our own mind as a compass, we can struggle to make sense of apparent unfairness. Job has provided both a backbone and a language for our pain. In my darkest moments, seeing my husband suffer, Job’s wife’s words were not far from my tongue. “Are you still holding on to your integrity?  Why don’t you just curse God and die?”  I am not proud of this and I do not believe we are called to...

Read More